Post by Ann on Dec 29, 2004 14:29:35 GMT -5
The No Man's Land Blues
Ahhh here I am at Day 63......right smack in the middle of the challenge we call No Man's Land. I have been here before so I know this phenomena is true and this is the time frame that decides if you REALLY want to stay quit. When I say quit, what I really mean is this is when YOU decide to take control of your life and let the transformation begin......Two days ago I celebrated 2 months...experienced the high of highs.....today feeling kinda lost....kinda low......BUT having been in this "uncomfortable place" before I realize that this is all about taking a step out of the comfort zone.....learning something new......
Just this morning my 5 year old told me he loves school and I asked why.....He said, "Because I learn something new everyday and I want to learn how to read so I can read a story to you".....all I could do was give him the BIGGEST heartfelt hug I could muster up......My son just solved the mystery of NO Man's Land....for me at least.....It is a time to LEARN, to develop new skills, to set goals for yourself....short term and long term.......Some days you're scared, frustrated, angry, happy, feeling on top of the world.......BOTTOM LINE, we are LEARNING to FEEL.....I am no different than my son starting kindergarten.....I am learning the rules, learning how to socialize as a non smoker, doing homework (soul searching), learning everything as a novice, getting a report card (hitting my milestones), and taking the next step toward a new and better me.....
For those of you in this WONDERFUL (not) period of your quit.......take it one day at a time......learn to accept your emotions and allow yourself to FEEL them.....It really is OK to cry and feel sad.....you are letting out YEARS of hidden/buried emotions......we are no different than a child learning the ropes of how to handle their emotions......nurture yourself......YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!
Yesterday I was happy, today a little blue BUT that is OK because I am still winning.......I am dealing with this without my pacifier.....I am growing up right before MY childrens eyes......what a beautiful memory to share!!!
Cathy
D 63
found on Quitnet
Ahhh here I am at Day 63......right smack in the middle of the challenge we call No Man's Land. I have been here before so I know this phenomena is true and this is the time frame that decides if you REALLY want to stay quit. When I say quit, what I really mean is this is when YOU decide to take control of your life and let the transformation begin......Two days ago I celebrated 2 months...experienced the high of highs.....today feeling kinda lost....kinda low......BUT having been in this "uncomfortable place" before I realize that this is all about taking a step out of the comfort zone.....learning something new......
Just this morning my 5 year old told me he loves school and I asked why.....He said, "Because I learn something new everyday and I want to learn how to read so I can read a story to you".....all I could do was give him the BIGGEST heartfelt hug I could muster up......My son just solved the mystery of NO Man's Land....for me at least.....It is a time to LEARN, to develop new skills, to set goals for yourself....short term and long term.......Some days you're scared, frustrated, angry, happy, feeling on top of the world.......BOTTOM LINE, we are LEARNING to FEEL.....I am no different than my son starting kindergarten.....I am learning the rules, learning how to socialize as a non smoker, doing homework (soul searching), learning everything as a novice, getting a report card (hitting my milestones), and taking the next step toward a new and better me.....
For those of you in this WONDERFUL (not) period of your quit.......take it one day at a time......learn to accept your emotions and allow yourself to FEEL them.....It really is OK to cry and feel sad.....you are letting out YEARS of hidden/buried emotions......we are no different than a child learning the ropes of how to handle their emotions......nurture yourself......YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!
Yesterday I was happy, today a little blue BUT that is OK because I am still winning.......I am dealing with this without my pacifier.....I am growing up right before MY childrens eyes......what a beautiful memory to share!!!
Cathy
D 63
found on Quitnet