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Jun 1, 2004 11:00:08 GMT -5
Post by judyb on Jun 1, 2004 11:00:08 GMT -5
It was right around this time last year when I was sorta flitting around... I was like you are now, a little skittish, a little antsy, lots of nervous energy. The lack of cigarettes and nicotine plus all the fresh air I was absorbing created the 'fog' everyone is talking about. I remember it as though it were yesterday.
The leaves were beginning to turn and fall from the trees... autumn colors everywhere, cool crisp air, the wind blowing in from the north. I remember watching the geese in their formations flying over the house. Because I had just quit smoking, I had all this energy and I was looking for ways to spend it. I grabbed my camera and stood out in the yard and started taking pictures. I was 'seeing things' I hadn't seen in years. It was not as though I was blind and suddenly regained my vision, it was because I just had not taken the time to look around me. In so many words, I was rediscovering all kinds of things. Things that I had taken for granted for so many years. Life without cigarettes was leading me into some strange territory. It was strange, but in a wonderful way. It has been mentioned on this board many times….. I got my life back.
This may sound like babble or you may think I'm just a nut case, but even though I was going through withdrawal and felt uncomfortable at times, a reborn individual popped up. I haven't looked back since. When you really feel the elation of what you're doing and are enjoying those moments, lock in on them and remember those feelings. They will carry you away and will help you through those times when you miss the smoking. They will be of particular value and will give you an edge when arguing with the beast.
Mark my words, stay with the quit, each day will come an adventure. You'll look forward to the challenge and will be able to kick the beast out of your life forever. You'll understand everything I'm trying to say here.
originally posted by Larry (Bubb) on Friday, October 06, 2000 - 04:11 pm:
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Jun 1, 2004 11:49:59 GMT -5
Post by jpkwitter on Jun 1, 2004 11:49:59 GMT -5
on the 16th day of my quit and every day after my youngest daughter has made a picture and posted it on our message board in the kitchen. I don't know why she chose the 16th day to start to do this but it is a wonderful thing for me. Every day I go downstairs and see what she has drawn...it is a new habit I told her...a new addiction for me... She is 18 and has watched me struggle with this addiction of mine for many many years...stopping and starting stopping and starting...an understanding on her part that it is not just a matter of butting it out... This quit is different...I feel as though I have been ill for a very long time and am now getting well...like you know when you have the flu and are bedridden for a couple of days...even when the fever is gone and the rest of the symptoms have pretty much cleared up...you feel like crap to put it mildly...then you shower...you feel alive for the first time in days...it is that feeling I have right this very moment...like I have taken that shower and am feeling new again.... I feel strong...I have spent years in the fight flight mode(mostly taking flight)lol...and now I stand my ground...it is a good feeling...frightening because it is new...but good. I have a cat...l'il guy...we have had her for about a year now I guess...she is the oddest creature...she brings a lot of laughter into our lives when we badly need it...she is the only surviving kitten from a litter of 5...I have never seen a cat quite like her...and she is a percher...like a bird she will sit on your shoulder while you walk around and it is as though she belongs there...once in a while she will rub your face with her paw... when she is feeling unsure of herself she will stop midstride and start to lick her leg or her paw...lost...then on she will go to whatever she had planned in the first place...digging in my plants usually...lol...like she needs permission first or something...I feel like that...so many times in my life I have automatically reached for that smoke...believing it to be the elixir of life...I once said if I quit smoking I will die...I meant that...it is what I truly felt...that feeling has left me now and I am not sure what is taking its place but whatever it is it feels great. Life is good...problems, stress,dilema,hurt,pain,worry,etc...were there before and will be there now...I just react differently . ;D I miss Bubb and his wonderful way with words...I like to think he is writing a great novel...I hope he will find his way back here. JP
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Post by Dot on Jun 2, 2004 6:23:23 GMT -5
Two great posts here. Yes, jp, the strength does come, even though some days we seem to slip a little. But just keep holding on to the rest of us....the storm will die down, and you'll be able to stand alone!
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Jun 2, 2004 22:02:42 GMT -5
Post by slim on Jun 2, 2004 22:02:42 GMT -5
hey JP I am proud of you! It is a wonderful feeling to be a part of your final quit! Persistance pays off in the end. The good positive feelings you are having will come in handy when you need them. You are starting to break free and it feels good, doesn't!!!!! Stay focused and determined for the beast hangs around - ready to be your friend at a moments notice....just tell him your are traveling a new path and it feels good.... Don't need ya anymore!
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Jun 3, 2004 20:33:15 GMT -5
Post by Don on Jun 3, 2004 20:33:15 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]JP![/glow]
;D
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