Post by Ann on Nov 21, 2008 8:47:56 GMT -5
There By The Grace Of God Go I………………
Today was one of those days where I looked back on my life and did a lot of reflection about everything, where I have been and where I am headed. For the past year I have been struggling with many different aspects of life that in the past would have clearly sent me over the edge into the abyss. A lot of it didn’t make any sense whatsoever; I’ve grown accustomed to the thoughts that run rampant through my head, like an old pair of shoes they stink but they are comfortable. I guess I was always comfortable with my ideas of insanity.
We all feel inferior at times, whether it is in this challenge or life in general. We are addicts and that is a bond that can never be broken. We all may live in different parts of the world or have different perceptions of that world but we all have the same feelings of inadequacy that we try to either escape through our addictions or mask with them.
I spent the better part of today feeling sorry for myself, on the pity pot so to speak. A lot of what is going on in my life has to do with choices I have made in the past, my choices. But through those choices events have happened that have made me wonder if putting on a mask or trying one of the many escapes of the past would indeed help and possibly be a solution. As with any addict escape always seems like a viable solution.
I realized tonight that the pain really does not matter. I have so much to be grateful for in my life, so much to be thankful for. We live in a world where pain and suffering surround us on a daily basis. All you have to do is turn on your local news to see that the problems that we addicts make into mountains are really just small little hills in the scheme of things. Pain is Pain whether it’s hating your job or hating your life whether your spouse has left you or you wish they would, whether you have lost a loved one or not escape is something we all think of, some of us choose it, others choose to press on. Either way the pain is still there. Eventually it will go away, it’s just the perception and attention that we give to that pain that allows us to either move on or not!
Quitting Smoking Is Not Hard, Deciding To Is!
found on Quitnet
Today was one of those days where I looked back on my life and did a lot of reflection about everything, where I have been and where I am headed. For the past year I have been struggling with many different aspects of life that in the past would have clearly sent me over the edge into the abyss. A lot of it didn’t make any sense whatsoever; I’ve grown accustomed to the thoughts that run rampant through my head, like an old pair of shoes they stink but they are comfortable. I guess I was always comfortable with my ideas of insanity.
We all feel inferior at times, whether it is in this challenge or life in general. We are addicts and that is a bond that can never be broken. We all may live in different parts of the world or have different perceptions of that world but we all have the same feelings of inadequacy that we try to either escape through our addictions or mask with them.
I spent the better part of today feeling sorry for myself, on the pity pot so to speak. A lot of what is going on in my life has to do with choices I have made in the past, my choices. But through those choices events have happened that have made me wonder if putting on a mask or trying one of the many escapes of the past would indeed help and possibly be a solution. As with any addict escape always seems like a viable solution.
I realized tonight that the pain really does not matter. I have so much to be grateful for in my life, so much to be thankful for. We live in a world where pain and suffering surround us on a daily basis. All you have to do is turn on your local news to see that the problems that we addicts make into mountains are really just small little hills in the scheme of things. Pain is Pain whether it’s hating your job or hating your life whether your spouse has left you or you wish they would, whether you have lost a loved one or not escape is something we all think of, some of us choose it, others choose to press on. Either way the pain is still there. Eventually it will go away, it’s just the perception and attention that we give to that pain that allows us to either move on or not!
Quitting Smoking Is Not Hard, Deciding To Is!
found on Quitnet