Post by Ann on Feb 13, 2009 8:54:02 GMT -5
Today...I cried.
Today, I went for a bike ride. I decided to go someplace different, some place that I hadn't seen before...wanting to see and experience something new.
The trail that I took, led me to a bridge that goes over top of a busy highway. Up to the top of the bridge I went...and stopped...and just watched all of the cars, the trucks, going to and from...who knows where. I didn't need to know. I just watched and listened. THOUSANDS of people passing right by me, right under me, so quickly that they were gone in an instant.
Then...all of the sudden...there was quiet...calm...no cars coming from either direction. All the chaos had disapeared, and left behind a total calm feeling.
WOW! And it hit me. That is my life. That is OUR life.
I rode off the bridge, through the woods in search of a place to sit and think. I came to a very small park, more of a garden with a small lake in the middle of it and a few big beautiful willow trees next to the waters edge. It was absolutely beautiful and perfect!
I sat down under one of the willow trees and thought about how that traffic mirrored life. So much going on all at once...so much chaos, always moving, always going...always doing...and then...we hit a moment of calmness...a moment when everything is clear.
I hit that moment.
I sat there under that willow tree, watching the ducks...the birds...the father and son fishing together...feeling the calmness.....
...and I cried.
I cried for all of the things that I allowed myself to miss out on for so many years...all of the beautiful things that went by me un-noticed.
I cried for all of the mistakes that I've made...and all of the ones I will still make in the future.
I cried for all of the people who have passed by me...and I never felt their presence.
I cried for all of the people that I never thanked...but who have never been forgotten.
I cried for all of the people that I may have hurt along the way...and the ones who have hurt me.
I cried for all of the people who have not yet figured out just how beautiful they are...how beautiful they can be.
I cried for my father...for all of the years that gone...that I can't ever get back.
I cried for all of the beautiful things that I allowed myself to see today...to FEEL today.
I cried for all of the beautiful things that I will allow myself to see and feel tomorrow.
I cried for the end of my past...and for my new beginning.
I just sat there and cried.
It wasn't a sense of mourning or loss. It was not total sadness, although a little of it was. But It was more a sense of letting go...and knowing that only the best things remain for me...if I choose to have them.
A sense of freedom.
So I cried and let go.
From that one moment of chaos today, comes a lifetime of calmness. Calmness, because I SEE, I HEAR, I FEEL, I KNOW.
I'm awake.
I'm awake. My eyes are wide open.
So much left to be discovered...to feel...to be a part of.
And it all begins with me.
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Today, I went for a bike ride. I decided to go someplace different, some place that I hadn't seen before...wanting to see and experience something new.
The trail that I took, led me to a bridge that goes over top of a busy highway. Up to the top of the bridge I went...and stopped...and just watched all of the cars, the trucks, going to and from...who knows where. I didn't need to know. I just watched and listened. THOUSANDS of people passing right by me, right under me, so quickly that they were gone in an instant.
Then...all of the sudden...there was quiet...calm...no cars coming from either direction. All the chaos had disapeared, and left behind a total calm feeling.
WOW! And it hit me. That is my life. That is OUR life.
I rode off the bridge, through the woods in search of a place to sit and think. I came to a very small park, more of a garden with a small lake in the middle of it and a few big beautiful willow trees next to the waters edge. It was absolutely beautiful and perfect!
I sat down under one of the willow trees and thought about how that traffic mirrored life. So much going on all at once...so much chaos, always moving, always going...always doing...and then...we hit a moment of calmness...a moment when everything is clear.
I hit that moment.
I sat there under that willow tree, watching the ducks...the birds...the father and son fishing together...feeling the calmness.....
...and I cried.
I cried for all of the things that I allowed myself to miss out on for so many years...all of the beautiful things that went by me un-noticed.
I cried for all of the mistakes that I've made...and all of the ones I will still make in the future.
I cried for all of the people who have passed by me...and I never felt their presence.
I cried for all of the people that I never thanked...but who have never been forgotten.
I cried for all of the people that I may have hurt along the way...and the ones who have hurt me.
I cried for all of the people who have not yet figured out just how beautiful they are...how beautiful they can be.
I cried for my father...for all of the years that gone...that I can't ever get back.
I cried for all of the beautiful things that I allowed myself to see today...to FEEL today.
I cried for all of the beautiful things that I will allow myself to see and feel tomorrow.
I cried for the end of my past...and for my new beginning.
I just sat there and cried.
It wasn't a sense of mourning or loss. It was not total sadness, although a little of it was. But It was more a sense of letting go...and knowing that only the best things remain for me...if I choose to have them.
A sense of freedom.
So I cried and let go.
From that one moment of chaos today, comes a lifetime of calmness. Calmness, because I SEE, I HEAR, I FEEL, I KNOW.
I'm awake.
I'm awake. My eyes are wide open.
So much left to be discovered...to feel...to be a part of.
And it all begins with me.
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