I am so sorry you have lost hour husband. I still have mine so I don't know what you are going through but the adage is true 'time heals'. It will take time and you will be going through various stages of grief. I often think it would be nice to have one in moments of depression but we have fought so hard for so long that it's truly not worth it. I lost my mom a couple of years ago and I still think of her all the time, I call my sister and we talk about her. Pick on friends, clergy, even a group that focus on the loss of a spouse. Do what ever you have to for your peace of mind and body. Again my condolences on your loss.
I check in from time to time but not as often as I did when I was first quit and really needed everyone's support. I'm sorry to see this board and all it's great people slowly going their own way. I hope that any new comer finds the support that we all got when we quit. Jan. 20, 2000 Yeah 14 years quit!
Don how awful for you. Every time I'm out and every time on the internet I keep thinking in the back of my mind someone is out there. What do they get out of doing something like this to every day ordinary people? Is it just because they can do it that they do. I hope you have everything figured out and can get on with your life.